BlameThePixel!

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do you know me?? you do, but do you know who i am? i wont care if you delete this comment cos it must look like im stalking/obsessed/or something. and im not. i just sometimes sit here and wonder how much i mean to you, how much i ever meant to you. and then i wonder whether you ever think of me like i do you. and when i'm lying in bed, unable to sleep, it sometimes just gets to me. not just you, but all of it; life, school, love.....is any of it actually worth it? is there anything in life that makes it worth feeling like this? cos sometimes i just dont think there is, and its when i feel like this that i sit with a blade in my hand and look at my already scratched wrist and add to it. what is there in this world that makes it all worth while? what is it? it must be out there somewhere cos i have sometimes felt it. occasionally..very occasionally, when i am with my friends i can drag myself up from this deep dark hole i am in, and then i enjoy life....for an hour or two. and then some one says or does something, and i tumble straight back down again. an hour of release very two days really isnt much. so my release comes in other ways. a blade. my nails. pain. blood. it is my release, my solution, my wish. just to be gone from this damned world and all that it contains. and just when i get to this stage of my plunge, i think, why? why do i feel like this? there are people in this world who have gone through more, so much more than mr, but they manage to get back up again, yet i? i sit here and fall. my friends don't notice, well they notice my wrist but just say...what did you do?...oh, i was playing with my pets....oh, okay....and they believe me! but every day i feel like this, the blade goes deeper, not much but a little. a few times i have even stood in the kitchen with a bread knife in my hand. even laid over my wrist. but then i put it down. because i do have some hope in my soul. hope that it will be okay, and i will find again the feeling of what is right and good and worth living for. and this hope is all that i am living for, to see whether my hope is justified. as i said before, i dont care if you read this, i dont care if you think anything about it, and i dont care if you want to delete it. i dont even know why im publishing it..just letting my feelings out by writing them down has helped. but, here goes anyway.... 28 November 02:35

Published by: Someone you know

Quoted :: kikumbob

Im not looking for confession, althought that would be nice, I just want to tell that person Im onto them.

Quoted :: Star Worms

Well it's obviously someone who doesn't know what capital letters or grammar are.